This was both an easy read and a hard one.
Ely and Wyatt’s relationship develops in a meaningful and sexy way. Their banter is hilarious and enviable. 
It was hard for me to empathize with Ely and Wyatt, as someone who has a couple relatives who are addicts. 
But I think it was an invaluable experience for me to get into the heads of these characters and Victoria Lee’s writing is a big part of that. 

I feel like this is among the least romance-like romance novels I've ever read, even though all the beats are technically there and the leads do have interesting chemistry. But still, their romantic story feels like merely connective tissue for their respective character arcs, and those make the book as a whole really shine.

It took me a while to warm up to Eli and start truly enjoying her chapters. At first, she came off as sort of darkly self-absorbed in a way that I could understand and empathize with given her history, but she was a tad too unlikable to be compelling. It changed during that one scene when she encouraged and supported her roommate while also experiencing and acknowledging her jealousy over the opportunities her roommate was getting. That made for an interesting mix of emotions that instantly made her more relatable to me. I guess that's the key to my heart: the character can get away with anything as long as they do occasional nice things for others, even (or maybe especially) if they don't do it for conventionally/socially acceptably nice reasons, lol. With Wyatt, I was more intrigued from his earliest POV chapter, because he struck me as someone trying hard to be a good, moral person but hiding a fair bit of darkness underneath that facade, and I enjoyed what I saw as the story progressed.

While I didn't feel super invested into the romance, putting most of my focus into the individual arcs instead, I appreciated how the romance made those arcs intersect, each of them mirroring the other in interesting ways. On the surface, Eli and Wyatt had a lot in common as addicts in recovery who had to go no contact with their family. And then there are the aspects of their respective stories that are practically polar opposites in ways that become clearer and clearer as the story progresses. I really liked the build-up to certain reveals about their pasts, and the general theme of reconnecting with your past in order to keep moving toward the future.

There's a lot more to this book that really stuck with me: all the relatable thoughts about making art, vivid New York descriptions, Eli's relationship to her religion and being part of the Jewish community, great trans representation, prose that pulled me in, and so much more. While this wasn't the romance I was looking for when I picked up the book, I did enjoy what I got. Definitely recommending this to anyone looking for complex, flawed characters dealing with the consequences of their worst moments and building themselves and each other up, or for narratives about coming back home and facing all the ways you've changed.

Very powerful romance that does far more than a traditional book in this genre might. I loved the character growth and development from both main characters, as well as the complex/intersectional representation from each of them. The third act breakup was my least favorite part of this book, which unfortunately left me a little unsatisfied with the ending. That being said, this was still a very solid read and I highly recommend it to anyone interested in a love story with some heavier themes.

This book took me awhile to get through not because of its quality, but its content.  I greatly urge anyone who is interested in reading this book to please check the CWs.

We're first introduced to Ely Cohen who you learn off-the-bat is an addict in recovery. You also learnt that she is returning to her home area of NYC for the first time in nearly a decade, which on its own is pretty tough, but with the added layer of being from a Chabad Orthodox neighborhood (Crown Heights) adds more tension and insecurity to her character. That's a lot, and Ely's struggles with addiction, religion, and her art are captivating, but at times (understandably) overwhelming. Ely then meets Wyatt who is (unknowingly) her knew professor at her new art program. I do wish that we got a bit more of Wyatt's POV. With the little that we were given I almost wish that it had been single POV, not because I didn't like Wyatt because I did, but I just felt that Ely had so much more given to her and Wyatt didn't get the meat of his POV until 2/3s of the way through the story.

Ely as a character could have very easily fallen into the "annoying" bucket of female POVs that people are so willing and able to toss characters into. "Annoying" a lot of the times usually means they're immature or outspoken or confident or somewhere in-between. Ely is very confident - she knows who she is, what she wants, but that doesn't mean that she's faultless. And that's what I appreciate about her. We're able to see her cracks and her deepest thoughts and who she really sees herself as. I want the best for Ely, and I'm sad that the epilogue was only a month in the future because we as the reader don't really get to know what she's doing post-Parker.

Also...there is a trope that I really don't like in romance and it's insta-love. This isn't insta-love in the base sense of the trope, it's insta-lust which is valid. However, at the end of the book (this is not a spoiler it's a romance), their relationship has escalated very fast and there's 'I love you's and it's like...it hasn't been that long. It's not the most egregious example I've seen, but it took me out of it a little bit. And the third act breakup was unnecessary. I had literally just thought how nice it was that there wasn't one and then immediately ate my words on the next page. RIP.

Wyatt's trans-ness I think was also handled very well. The author didn't shy away from explicit sex while still having moments of explicit communication between the two. He also discusses his thoughts on being trans but it isn't all he is or the whole point of his character. There is the relationship with his dad being dysfunctional, but he's just seen as Wyatt the Master Artist for the majority of the book which is great. I do just wish we got to see more of Wyatt making art since we got to see so much of Ely doing so. 

Don't do drugs, kids. 

I would have liked about 100 more pages of just Wyatt's POV, otherwise this book was great. I cried a lot.

this book is fine. it's not really a romance so it shouldn't be advertised as such but other than that it's a great book. i think the topics in it are just a little bit out of my depth and i found it hard to get through the book. i also felt like it moved incredibly fast so the pacing kinda threw me off. a great story about addiction, art, faith and the intersections of all of those subjects.